Ego Death

What is Ego Death
So many recognizable things in what she says…
Clearly, she’s put a lot of thought into it, deep self-analysis… I do that a lot too.
Always trying to see yourself from other people’s perceptions

I do that too, I try to see myself through the eyes and thoughts of others, and I mainly do that in order to see for myself what I’m doing wrong and would like to improve, but I don’t know how, and besides, I’ve also learned to see myself very negatively in doing so.

But when she says:
“Rarely you are perceived accurately,”
I must add,
“Rarely do I perceive accurately how they see me or what they are thinking.”
And often, one also assumes the worst (and worst-case scenarios), because if all one’s energy is spent searching for faults within oneself to improve, there might not be any energy left to see anything positive about oneself. And even though I do realize that, it is extremely difficult to believe that what I feel myself could be wrong. After all, it feels so strong as intuition that it’s not something you can just shake off.
Self-analysis – and neurotypical psychologists not knowing that we do that allready all the time

So indeed, this is what happens when, as an autistic person, you go to a psychologist who knows nothing about autism (hopefully better with those who know more about it), which is why I never really felt that a psychologist could help me… except for briefly providing an outlet, which feels good for a moment but never really means making any progress.

cortical processing

Cortical processing refers to the brain’s ability to interpret and analyze sensory information received from the environment.
Cortical processing involves complex neural networks that integrate and interpret sensory information to produce perceptions, thoughts, and actions.

Here he explains how self-analytical individuals with autism can be.

As well as how we can talk about (even the worst) things we have experienced/are experiencing as if we are telling a story about something that happened to someone else. Well, this also explains why I always seem to laugh when I talk about my own problems, even the most severe… some people, however, think they can tell from that that what I’m saying can’t be so serious.

Once a psychologist also noticed that and told me, actually, they should have been able to deduce from that that I might possibly be autistic, but unfortunately, most psychologists know nothing about autism.

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